It always seems to start off super amazing and the fact that someone actually finds you somewhat attractive enough (physical traits and personality traits) to give you the time of day to get to know you is a great feeling. It’s a moment of great ecstasy.
But then, the uneasiness and constant doubt that your ‘special someone’ could find something they don’t like about you or realize it just won’t work and wind up finding someone better is.. torture.
I don’t know why i care so much. I’m probably just awfully insecure. Maybe it’s just the media that gives me this sort of impression that i should have someone that loves me back in such a way or maybe it’s the envy of what other people have but i just feel i can’t connect with anyone at all. And when i think i do, i’m dead wrong. Half of the time i think i need a self-revaluation but it’s literally impossible when majority of people these days are afraid to tell the truth and rather beat around the bushes to save their pride and avoid the awkwardness. How i’m i suppose to know if it’s me that’s the problem and how can i improve myself if no one speaks up?